Valentine's Day... A Cacaphony of Mixed Emotions

It is hard to decide on a day like this what type of emotions to experience. I guess a little of everything. So, as far as the first thing on my mind... it is Paul's Heavenly birthday. 5 years ago he passed away and left us, but went somewhere so much better than we can imagine. Heaven is real. Heaven is where he is. Way better than being here. I was really thankful to see our family exhibiting more peace this year than ever before. I don't know what it is... but I do no a LOT of people were praying for us today. I don't think we will ever stop missing Paul, actually, I know we won't... but, I think we are getting to a point where we know he is with His Creator... in a pain with no pain, hurt, sorrow, or sin. Wow... How can we not be amazed. Thank you for all who prayed and Thank you God that you comfort those who mourn.

The other major aspect of the day is that it is Valentine's Day. As a single late 20's (now) male, there is a lot of pressure from the media and from most people that it is a day to have a relationship. Honestly, this year it really didn't effect me. It may have been one of few that did. For some reason, even though I was in the capital of VDay presumptions and expectations (a High School), it really wasn't on the forefront of my mind at all. I think I may be at a place where I can finally really say I am ok with not having a relationship. I don't feel lonely like that... I'd be ok if one came along, but it really isn't something I'm particularly looking for. We will see how God uses this time!

It was a good day though, despite all of that. Our blood drive at Hallsville (our first time there in 10 years) went really well, I had a nap and headed to hang out with John Brunett... had a good time with him and his lady friend Beth. She seemed fun. Tomorrow work in Dallas and hanging with friends. we will see how it goes!