Loss, Love

Today was a tough day for me. The very first thing I saw this morning was a text from my friend Matt Ford saying his mother had passed away this morning. That kinda set the precedence for the rest of the day. It was really somber and I had a hard time even getting out of bed. I contacted many friends to let them know the situation and to share what was going on and spent time in prayer. It is so hard to imagine losing my mom. And for Matt, he was living there with her. Something happened the night before and she left in an ambulance and never came home. So unfathomable. I know their family has struggled a bit financially and have Matt's 2 nieces at home that they take care of so it is hard to imagine how it is going to be. Matt's dad is working and I am not sure where his brother is living right now... but Matt is on dialysis a few times a week and his brother is about to give him a kidney in April so they will BOTH be post op on a major surgery. I hope God can use me to bless them. Matt is a huge blessing to me and a great brother. My mom and I were talking about the friends of mine who've lost their mothers and notice that most of them have a son named Matthew. Random thought.

I just look forward to seeing how God can work through their family in this and provide peace that surpasses all understanding and bless them as they mourn.

Having been through a close loss I can understand what they are going through, but I can't imagine losing my mom. She is really my best friend and closest confidant and I can't imagine going through it right now... but, I know the Lord is good and sovereign and reigns.

Now, for my evening, God blessed me by allowing Caleb, Chris and I the chance to go commune together. We went to Wasabi and had sushi and sat and had sweet talk about God and just getting to learn one anothers hearts better and reflect on culture and our place in it. IT was a great time. Our waitress noticed us pray and came and talked with us for a while about faith and that was pretty awesome. Her name was Tana Brandon and she is a student at UT Tyler and has worked at Sky Ranch. It was a good time getting to chat to a stranger about Christ for a bit.

After that back to the house to watch The Aviator with all the roomies but Dustin, and it was a nice time to relax.

I hope that I can try to incorporate some of the things we talked about in my life. Trying to be counter culture and more like Christ in the way He approached everything. Not having the focus on the cool new "things" I want, but searching for ways to share and experience His Love.